Went for the wake, took a last glance at him, sat down and had some recollections, went home.

I was just thinking, death comes to all and it's alright. But is it still alright if you're being forced till death? Though many might grieve for him and claim that he's your "oh-so-great" teacher. But do you really mean what you say? Why put up the act? Why show the sympathy only during one's death? True that some may really feel sad for his death and all, I understand how you feel. For those who aren't and putting up a front, please think through what I just said. Do you think your existance contributed to his death? I don't really know if I do contribute to his death but as for all I know, I DO feel remorseful now that I did so badly for his subject and not paying enough attention to him during class. For all those wrongs that I did, I'm truly sorry.

Enough said, I just finished my last paper for the common test. Waiting for my results now. Don't really dare to pin my hopes up too high. The higher your hopes are, the greater you fall. Sometimes I just realise, I tend to be a "perfectionist" in what I do (besides studies that is :X). I always want to do things nicely and want things to go nicely for me. When things get out of the way, I get all angry. True I might be a patient person but at times, I may tend to get a lil impatient. Only realised this when Raymond suddenly said this to me today,

Raymond: Chris this is just a game you don't have to get too serious over it.
Chris: Precisely this is a game and I want to win it. Just work together as a team and we can make it.

I meant this may seem like a casual remark, but deep down, I really had that urge to win. I didn't want to lose. Though it might have been a lousy start, I never lost hope and kept on fighting. To end off today's entry, I shall present to all a song, by Jem. First heard this song from Yang's phone, asked him to send me but ended up downloading it myself 'cause he was LAZY!!

Jem - They

Who made up all the rules
We follow them like fools
Believe them to be true
Don't care to think them through

And I'm sorry so sorry
I'm sorry it's like this
I'm sorry so sorry
I'm sorry we do this

And it's ironic too
Coz what we tend to do
Is act on what they say
And then it is that way

And I'm sorry so sorry
I'm sorry it's like this
I'm sorry so sorry
I'm sorry we do this

Who are they
And where are they
And how can they possibly
Know all this
Who are they
And where are they
And how can they possibly
Know all this

Do you see what I see
Why do we live like this
Is it because it's true
That ignorance is bliss

Who are they
And where are they
And how do they
Know all this
And I'm sorry so sorry
I'm sorry it's like this

Do you see what I see
Why do we live like this
Is it because it's true
That ignorance is bliss

And who are they
And where are they
And how can they
Know all this
And I'm sorry so sorry
I'm sorry we do this